What's on your mind?

There are 2 things that occupied my mind for quite some time

Worry scared Worry scared..

I got really paranoid and was quite down for a few days...what if i don't make it...
Shared with a few people about it and thank God for their encouraging words and prayers!

But i once again questioned myself..
What happened to all the Talk about depending and trusting in the Lord?

Sometimes i think we forgot that the God we believe and serve is so much bigger then our problems. and we actually cast doubt on whether GOd will bring us through the situation.

Yes he will bring you through it but the process and the end result may not be what we expect. But what the Lord desires.

Are we then able to subject ourselves to moulding by the Lord?
Or do we always choose the easy way out of giving up and say "i don't care anymore"

Frankly speaking that thought often went through my mind .

But the Lord once again reminded me that i said in the beginnning i wanted to be subject to his will. backing out now?

No i will not back out, because i love the Lord and want to do his will.
When the going get tough I Will to keep praise on my lips as david did (PSalm 40).

He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear him and will trust in the Lord (Psalm 40:3)

Praise Be to the Lord my strength and my SOng!

Straight from the heart..

Do you have a contractual relationship or a convenantal relationship with the Lord?

Pastor questioned us on sunday. The immediate response in my mind was OF COURSE a covenantal one.

Contractual relationship is one which is bound by duty and obligation. Its because i have to, therefore i do it.

Covenantal relationship however is one that is bound by LOVE for the Lord.

1 goal that i have set for myself before i got here was that i want to spend more time with the Lord. That includes doing regular QT , praying , simply just talking to the Lord. Involving the Lord in all aspects of my life.
Sadly i wasn't regular in doing QT and have made sure that i do it first thing in the morning.
That has been going great and i have been doing that for the past 2 weeks.

The only thing is that i've been doing it coz i have to, because its the right thing to do. ..
but thats not what God wants..

Can u imagine yourself loving this person so much and in the end all that the person is doing for you is out of duty and obligation and not because he/she loves u?
I think i would be like sad man.

That really set me thinking of the motivation behind what i do. Do i serve , read his word, encourage fellow christians because i have to? Or do i do it because i love the Lord?

Contractual or Covenantal?

It should come straight from the heart.