Reflect-October

Thank God for his faithfulness. He never fails to teach me no matter what the circumstances are.

I was sharing with a friend from church about reaching out to my Non Christian housemate. I was getting a little discouraged by the non ideal “results” I was hoping for. At the same time, I realised that I don’t have much time spent with her. I was very careful about what i was saying and doing. It somehow became quite orchestrated.

It came to a point where I would do certain things to please the person, I was getting quite weary because I was afraid that she would get angry and have the wrong impression about Christians ,I would be cautious over very little things. I have also warned my Christian housemate on a few occasions about the choice of words and impression she was giving. I became really paranoid. Instead of getting to know her (Non-C housemate) more and being able to talk about deeper things, I became distant. I prayed and asked the Lord to show me what is happening. How has wanting to show Christ to her become wanting to please her. Somehow my focus went haywire.

Praise the Lord nonetheless! The Lord helped me to realise that I have lost the focus. I tried to do so many things in my own power to “WIN” her over. I have completely forgotten about that in the end it’s the Holy Spirit that convicts her and no matter what good image I portray, it’ll not work. Along the way I became hypocritical. Thank God that he brought that to my attention.
What happened to wanting to see people saved because we want them to know the truth? I asked the Lord for forgiveness and prayed that I will treat her genuinely. One of my church friends encouraged me by saying that although we dun see quantifiable results but that does not mean that God is not working. It came as a timely reminder.

Pray for me that I will continue to look for opportunities to share and that as we continue to reach out, that we’ll always be mindful about our motivation. The Love of Christ.